Monday, February 27, 2006
One Month Old
Yesterday, Lexi was officially one month old. She has grown so much. I like seeing all the advancements she has made, but I am sad that time is passing so quickly.
Friday, February 24, 2006
MIL Still in the Hospital
Steve's mom was supposed to be released from the hospital yesterday, but they are going to keep her longer. She is still very dehydrated even with almost two weeks of being on an IV. The news was disheartening for her. Steve's dad had even bought a balloon, flowers and a card to welcome her home. At least she will be having visitors to cheer her up soon. Her aunt is coming this week from California to visit, entertain, and take care of her. Next week, her sister is coming from CA to do the same thing. I am not sure how long her sister will be here. One thing is for sure, we'll be headed up to PSL on the weekends to see his mom and show off the baby.
Thursday, February 23, 2006
I've been tagged by my sister, Paige.
1. Favorite star wars character?
2. Favorite type of dancing? (ex: swing, country, etc)
swaying with my baby
3. Name your top five favorite songs from the type of dancing stated above:
-Love is Spoken Here
-When We're Helping
-A Happy Family
-I am Glad for Many Things
4. What color do you tend to wear most often?
lately - anything that fits. normally - black
5. Finish this phrase: "Man when left in a natural state..."
...needs a woman to whip him in to shape.
6. Who out of the movie, "Hitchiker's Guide to the Galaxy," would you date?
haven't seen the movie or read the book
7. Write your own question and answer it:
-If you could pick any job, what would it be? SAHM
8. Tagg somebody
Emily, if she wants to. This one is a little weird.
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
For Better or Worse
Most trials in life are difficult to understand. People like to ask God why he would let something happen to them. Other than personal extreme physical pain, I don't do that. For the most part, I realize that these things can only be understood once the situation has passed. Sometimes, that takes years. Sometimes, your trials are meant to help others and may have no real significant purpose for yourself. Tonight, I believe that I am experiencing something that is purely for someone else's benefit.
It is no secret that my husband and I come from very different backgrounds. I was raised in a family that is as close to fanatically religious as possible without going off the deep end. On top of that, they are Mormons, so that is an added level of ideas and beliefs. I rarely delve into that part of myself, but it exists and I am aware of that.
On the other end of the spectrum, there is my husband's immediate family. I don't want to air their dirty laundry, but let's just say all of them have had to deal with substance abuse. My husband has come a LONG way in the past 8 years and a whole lot farther since we have been together. Still, our ideas of what is acceptable or normal are completely different.
For some bizarre reason, I believe that he is my Mr. Right. That helps me get through tough situations. To be honest, I am a person who naturally comes up with plans for life after divorce or death. When I was single, I was usually quick to breakup and move on. It is different with him, but I know I could go on and be fine. Now that I have a baby, there are times when his ideas of normal bother me so much that I think about protecting her from his influence. He is a very loving person and has many great qualities that every dad should have, but I wish he could be a better example.
Obviously, I am bothered by something and decided to vent online. That is not such a good idea, but I feel like doing it today. Yes, I still love him dearly just not so much this evening. Good thing he is still out of town.
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
All By Ourselves
Steve is in Jacksonville for the next few days. He is doing training for work, so that means Lexi and I are all by ourselves. It has been fairly easy, except for the added company work. My boss decided to set up my new computer last night. He came over to drop it off and hook it up. When he got home, he called me and walked me through a bunch of the IT things. I was trying to do baby stuff and computer stuff all at the same time. The fun continued this morning. I mapped the drives and then called him to set-up my e-mail through Outlook. There were some issues we still have to work on. After that is done, I have to transfer files from my old tower to my new one. Too many distractions for a single mom who just wants to spend time with her baby.
Visiting the MIL
Steve, Lexi and I went to Port St Lucie to see Steve's mom this weekend. To be honest, she wasn't looking very well. Ok, so she is in the hospital for a reason, but even considering that, she wasn't looking well. One of the main issues is constipation. She had gone 15 days without a movement, so they pumped her full of softeners and she was struggling. They also had accidentally given her Morphine, which she is allergic to. She was weak, nauseous, and throwing up. As far as treatment goes, they are giving her radiation once a day hoping that it will minimize some of the tumors that are causing the horrible back pain. Plus, they are working on the various blood clots they found. Nobody knows when she'll be released.
She took an hour nap while we were there, so we went on a walk with Steve's dad and brother, Jeff. There is a big river right behind the hospital. Steve's dad seemed more sentimental than ever. He was extra happy to see us. After 40 years of marriage, he is struggling to do things she always took care of like cooking, cleaning, and general house stuff. Actually, Jeff is currently living with them. I won't make a comment on my thoughts about that, but he has been helping out around the house. He is probably even keeping Steve's dad company. Who knows how these things are supposed to go?
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Even though it is February, this girl knows she is in Miami where all the stars come to work on their tans and be seen. Ok, so the photo is a distraction from the fact that I don't feel like typing anything. Did it work?
Tuesday, February 14, 2006
I have been planning to post a picture of Lexi and me all day. Unfortunately, she made funny faces in all of the ones I took. Plus, it hasn't been that easy posting it. In honor of the holiday, Lil Miss Lexi has insisted on being held and loved all day. She has been screaming for attention. (I can't complain because she doesn't do that often.) However, that made getting ready to go out to lunch with her dad very difficult. I had to put on make-up and blow-dry my hair with one hand. Not the easiest things to do. We did have a nice Valentines lunch though and she was asleep the whole time.
By the way, Lexi got her first Valentines card. I think her dad was relieved to find out that it came from her grandma (my mom) rather than a secret admirer. We're not ready for that!
Monday, February 13, 2006
MIL in Hospital
Steve's mom is in the hospital. Her back pains have been progressively getting worse despite the increased drugs they have been giving her. She dropped 20 lbs in two weeks and hasn't really slept. They scanned her back again because she was feeling more lumps and now they aren't sure if it is the deteriorating disk or the huge cancerous tumors that are causing the pain. On top of that, she is feeling more lumps all over her body. I can see that Steve is getting worried that she'll go down hill really fast like my father. For now, we can be glad that she is in the hospital and pain free. That means she can eat and sleep at least until they release her.
Thursday, February 09, 2006
2 Week Dr. Appt
Lexi had her 2 week appointment with the Doctor today and she is growing like a weed. She is 8 lbs 8 oz and 21.75" tall. I guess 3 oz of breast milk every 3 hours is doing wonders for her. I had been telling Steve that she seems to grow everyday. Then, I began to wonder if I was just imagining it. I guess not.
To date, I must admit that she has been an amazing baby. She basically only cries when she has a reason. However, she was fussy yesterday and simply wanted to be held all day. This is teaching me the art of living life with one arm. I think I am mastering it fairly well, especially at the computer. I actually finished an entire proposal with only my right arm. I am even typing this while holding her. (Please excuse any mistakes.)
She is growing and developing more and more every day, too fast if you ask me. The above photos are of Lexi's play time with dad. She just loves spending time with him and gets excited when she hears his voice. I called him today on speaker phone and she went wild. She certainly is Daddy's Girl, which is fine by me as long as he doesn't let her get away with murder when she is a teenager.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
I have been Tagged!
Guess what!?!?! I am IT. Shokufeh has tagged me. Now, I am going to share a little bit of info about me:
Four jobs I've had:
1. Substitute High School Teacher in the Middle East
2. Project Coordinator
3. Marketing/Graphic Design Specialist
4. Marketing Manager
Four movies I can watch over and over:
1. English Patient
2. Some Kind of Wonderful
3. Napoleon Dynamite (my dad was from Idaho)
4. Most Ben Stiller movies
Four places I've lived:
1. Doha, Qatar
2. Provo, UT
3. Denver, CO
4. Katy, Texas
Four TV shows I love:
2. What Not to Wear (since giving birth)
3. Documentaries (on HBO)
4. Kindergarten (on HBO)
Four places I've vacationed:
2. Nassau, Bahamas
4. Practically every national park on the west side of the US
Four of my favorite dishes:
1. Chicken Shwarma
2. Gyoza (Asian Dumplings/Potstickers)
4. Pasta Milano (from Macaroni Grill)
Four sites I visit daily:
2. Bank of America
4. the blogs listed on the right
Four places I would rather be right now:
1. on an island in the Caribbean
2. Mediterranean Cruise
3. Katy, Texas to see friends
4. practically any Resort Spa
Now that I have a baby, I'd go with fairly calm places.
Four bloggers I am tagging:
2. Emily (even though Shofukeh tagged her too)
3. Jennifer (even though Emily might tag her)
4. Sorry, nobody else - I don't know that many bloggers
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
We were blessed this weekend with visits from the Grandparents. My mom came Friday night and stayed until last night. Steve's parents and brother came Saturday and left Sunday. It was nice being able to see others enjoy Lexi. The best part though was all of my mom's help. She even took care of Lexi all Sunday night. All I had to do was sleep and get up every few hours to pump.
Now all the guests are gone and Steve is back at work. We've had a very nice day together. Although, I am seriously wondering how I am going to get any work (for the company) done though. Between feedings, I have managed to take a shower, fix lunch for Steve, as well as do laundry and the dishes. I also managed to check my work e-mails (millions), but other than that... not much. I'll have to figure out a way to maximize the time I spend working.
Thursday, February 02, 2006
Today, Lexi is one week old. That makes me sad. I actually don't look forward to any milestones because each one puts me closer to going back to work. I'll miss her so much. Two nights ago, when I was changing her diaper, I looked at her umbilical cord and thought that it looked really dry. I wanted to take a picture before she lost it, but 2 seconds later it popped off. That moment it gone and now she is not as much of a newborn. Time marches on.
On a brighter side, she had her first doctor's visit on Tuesday. She had already gained back 3 oz. We are quickly moving back up the scale. I better not say "we." I haven't weighed myself, but things seem to be shrinking (minus the D cups) and that is always a good thing.
Before too much time passes, I should share one of the sweetest moments I had with my husband. Saturday morning, at the hospital, I woke up excited that we were going to be discharged later on that day. The nurses came in and checked Lexi and me out. Then, they left and I was just thinking about going home when Steve pulled out a red box with a white ribbon on it. I had not even thought about the fact that it was my birthday. I opened the box to find an off-white porcelain music box. Inside was a sweet little diamond heart necklace. The tears started flowing. What a perfect gift to give someone who felt like her heart was going to explode with the love of a new baby and a wonderful husband. Steve was touched by my sentimental reaction. (See sometimes hormones help to enhance the mood.) He took a picture of me, but dear Internet, you'll never see it because that is the UGLIEST picture of me I have EVER seen. In a way, that makes the moment more special. He still loves me even when I look horrendous.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
With Open Eyes
I don't really feel like writing much, but I am doing much better in all areas. Also, I realized that I haven't posted a picture where you can see Lexi's eyes. Hope you enjoy.