Monday, October 03, 2005
Divulging Imperfections
Today, we had a little group meeting at work. We were discussing an incident that occurred last week that I only witnessed. Basically, one person became irate and shouted at the other person about a very harmless practical joke. During this entire ordeal, I did a little self-evaluation. I thought about some of the ways I react and how I feel about things. I was already aware of many things, but haven't really considered them in a while and decided to share.
First, I completely realize that I feel the need to speak up when I strongly disagree with something. I can't sit idly by and pretend nothing happened. I wish I could just close my eyes to things. Not that I have to be involved, I just want to know things are being handled. If not, I just want to share my opinion to be released of the obligation I feel. Sometimes being able to ignore things keeps you out COMPLETELY of the mess.
Second, although I have very positive overview of humankind in general, I have a hard time respecting people with certain flaws. I understand that we all have strengths and weaknesses, but some weaknesses I tend not to be very forgiving about. For instance, a person who is male chauvinistic, macho, and close-minded can have other great qualities, but I become stubborn about not liking them. When a person displays several of these weaknesses that I totally dislike, I lose complete respect for them in all aspects. After that, it is hard for me to see them in the same light.
Third, if I get in a little tiff with someone and I am allowed to speak my mind, I will be over it in a very short time frame. In fact, I completely forget about the whole thing. If you argue with me and then want to bring it up several months later, realize that I'll have forgotten about it. You will probably get even angrier because I haven't been stewing all these months and you will realize that it was no big deal to me. -Sorry, what can I say?
Fourth, one of the reasons that I enjoy changing jobs is because I get tired of the same old issues and consequently have less patience with the reoccurrences. Do I have to watch the same train wreck (actually more like a fender bender) over & over & over again? It really bores me to death. Obviously, I have to learn to live with it because I don't plan on going anywhere as long as we live in Miami.
Fifth, I believe that people should try to become aware of their flaws and should work to overcome them. Unfortunately, I don't think I care to dig to the root of these issues and however unpleasant they are I continue to allow these imperfections to be part of me. Perhaps, one day I'll be enlightened and decide a change is in order, but until then I'll focus on improving other things. Probably, all things I comfortable working on.
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Recent news, my Dad & Mother-in-Law were diagnosed with Terminal Cancer in April/May of 2005. My dad passed away 5-Dec-05 .
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